I´m not innocent / Part two (1x1)

I nodded and followed Cindy . I was very nervous , it would hurt too much to find out Marshall didn´t love me anymore.

"I don´t understand . I called many times and a girl answered" I whispered . I had thought Marshall had another girl. "Who was her ,then ?"

"Oh " I managed to say . Matty was silent and what made me more worried was the fact Marshall would be utterly pissed at me for not telling him he had a son.

"Matt ...He is my son " I whispered , not wanting to add he was Marshall´s too yet.

I nodded and looked at Cindy´s face , studying her reaction.

"Of course " I smiled and handed Matty to Cindy . "You can go play with him" . I smiled as I saw them together and headed to Marshall´s office . I sighed before knocking on the door. The conversation with him would be harder.

"Come in Cindy" I say while looking over papers

((Brb in like 3 hours gotta go to work))

(( Ok, bye . Have fun at work =) ))

I walked in , without telling him it was me instead of Cindy. When I was inside , I let myself stare at him . Just by looking at him I could see he was not the same as before.

" Yes Cindy?"

I bit my lip to not cry. I had no idea how to start. Would he even want to talk to me ?

I sigh and look up. I stop breathing

I caught my breathing when he looked up at me . I didn´t say a word , I just stared into his eyes .

"Sarah?"

"Marshall " I whispered , holding my tears .

"What are you doing here? Are you back?"

" I am back ..." I started and closed my eyes , trying to get the right words "I am so sorry , Marshall , for everything , for not fulfilling my promises , for not trusting you , for not letting you explain yourself ....and I know it´s hard . What I did is unforgivable , so I just wanted to let you know that . I´m not asking you to forgive me ..." I looked into his eyes.

I get up and hug her, "God I've missed you."

I hugged him back as tears ran down my cheeks "You have no idea how much I hate myself for having left you " I whispered.

"Its ok...your forgiven. I love you with all my heart"

"Marshall... I am not sure you´ll forgive another thing I have to tell you " I whispered as I hugged him. "Well, it´s about something I didn´t tell you until now..."